obses?? tidak~

ni la keje2 dikala bosan+tension

...owh,i need energy booster!

life getting hectic...
i luv to always have work to do,but bile dh smpai tahap belambak cmni..
all i get is headache! ..

this week,
none of my tym terbuang cmtu je..
wat esemen+ test + IT workshop + hafazan + article review yg sgt "best" + teaching kit +...

last 2 days wuz the most most most n most hectic day..
i got esemen draft to hand in,
an IT workshop from 2pm till 9pm,
n i got to prepare things for a surprise bufday party.. ;)
[happy birthday,my dear lec!]~~semoga dpt extra marks for this final.hakhakhak..
joke2~ we luv u!

luckily,
tomoro is holiday..
yet,its not relli holiday pon..
i have to sit for an IT test, held in Cyberjaya..
n some other assignments, which need to be submitted next week..

next week? yeah~ everything akan settle!
aku akan hidup dgn tenangnye... hoOOOray!

but,
3weeks to go.. for me final exam.hukhuk..
xprepare pape pn lg.. cmne ni?????
dh la carry mark sikit je. sobsob..

say,cheese!!

i luv this photo!

hehe. this is my niece; Intan Emily.

j . i . j . i . k

hari ni, rekod 2010 aku tercemar!
ingatkan taon ni,aku akan terselamat dr sebarang harassment n f****ing...
tp petang td, aku kene lg.. damn!

huhu.

siang td,aku+aya+moon.. kami bersama2 ke sogo.. [haha.itulah tempat pelaburan kami]

dikala aku+aya berlegar2 di area booth perfume, kami melintasi 1 makhluk yg asalnya dr kaum adam..
die kelihatan seperti seseorang dlm lingkungan 30an, dh mcm bapak orang la..
sedang berdiri di 1 sudut bersebelahan dgn kedai jam..
seperti sedang menunggu seseorang.

sedang rancak berborak mengenai perbelanjaan harian,kami hanya melintasi manusia itu..
omg~ die bg aku pandangan gatal yg sgt menjijikkan!
n aku tau.. kemana arah anak matanya..
dlm masa yg sama, die mendekatkan mulutnya pd telingaku dan berkata.. "Uuuuu.. ********!"
ow,damn!
manusia mcm ni xlayak idop..
patot kene humban kt loji taik je! haish.. geramnye aku..

dah la tua.. hodoh.. buncit.. gatal plak tuh!
huhu..

kalo dh dlm keadaan cmtu,
aku xmampu lg nk pk ape2.. rasa mcm keselamatan diri sgt terancam.
aku terus pgg tangan suraya,.. terdiam.. n aku sedar gak,air mata aku menitik..
ya Allah,takutnye aku..
jgn la ape2 yg xsepatotnye belaku..

huhu..
xpnah terlintas di hati aku nk mempersoalkan takdir,
tp knape aku slalu kene bende2 cmni?????
kalo nak kata aku berpakaian xsenonoh, tym aku berbaju kurung pon.. aku pnah kene gak.
huhuhuhuuu..
aku pernah berada ditahap hallucination gara2 takot dgn sume ni..
tp,alhamdulillah.. i managed to overcome it.

ya Allah,lindungilah aku~

..sobsob..

ya Allah..

dengan nama Allah yg maha pemurah lagi maha pengasihani..

ya Allah ampunilah segala dosa-dosaku..

bimbinglah hatiku ke jalan-Mu,ya Allah..

tunjukkanlah aku kebenaran.

ya Allah..

berilah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi setiap ujian dan dugaan-Mu,

berilah juga aku kekuatan untuk meninggalkan kehidupanku yg lalu..

ya Allah,

andai bukan dia yg ditakdirkan untukku,

maka Kau padamkanlah segala ingatanku, perasaanku, dan mimpiku terhadapnya..

kurniakanlah aku seorang hamba-Mu

yang mampu meminpinku ke ajaranMu yg sebenar..

ya Allah,

sesungguhnya aku adalah hambaMu yg jahil.

aku dambakan kehidupan yg aman dan tenang disamping agama-Mu

maka, ku pohon padaMu

anugerahkanlah aku iman yg teguh

untuk menahan segala hasutan hawa nafsu dan godaan syaitan

yg sering membisik di telingaku.

ya Allah,

sesungguhnya aku telah terlalu lalai

pada suruhan-Mu,

pada amanah kedua ibubapaku.

ya Tuhanku,

perkenankanlah doaku ini..

hanya pada Engkau aku bermohon..

dan pada Engkau aku berserah..

amin.

prinsip baru: i hate food!

motto baru!

"so,u decide.."

[inilah hasil ulangkaji pelajar2 di bilik B1.8; shimuk,aya,moon,eyzey..sempena mid-term test ungs2030]

yeah! kami mmg pelajar yg cemerlang!

jejaka berbaju oren..

disebabkan seminggu ni hari2 kami diisi dgn melakukan kerja2 ilmiah..
arini, aku+moon+aya kua meronggeng ke KLCC.

jika sudah ke sana,
xsah jika aku xsinggah kt kino. tgk2 novel best,bkn buku academic.
2x aku masuk kino arini,gara2 xpuas ati sbb xjumpe novel yg dh lame di"aim".

masa 1st tym masuk tu,
aku ade perasan sorang lelaki berbaju t-shirt oren sedang mencari buku..
tp aku wat xtau je la,sbb xknal.

then, 2nd tym masuk kino,
aku+aya menuju ke mesin nk cari buku..
dikala aya menaip tajuk buku tu,aku perasan lg mamat bju oren td sedang melihat kami.
erm..muke nmpak cm baik.maybe die around late 2o's or early 30's.
disebabkan die adalah stranger,maka aku wat cm xnmpak je la.

bile aku g je kt rak buku yg dicari itu..
tetibe ak nmpak laki tu dtg menghampiriku smbil tesenyum.. seram pon ade gak tgk die senyum~huhu

laki baju oren: awk cari buku ape?
shimuk: owh,sy cari buku ni.. [smbil tnjuk buku kt rak tu]
laki baju oren:ooOOoo..[senyumnye makin lebar].. name awk ape?
.........................................................ak trus jd blur bile die tnya cmtu.ape kejadahnye mamat ni nk tau name aku????
shimuk: erm,knape?.... mas,name sy.

laki bju oren tu pon pergi menuju kt rak lain smbil senyum lg.. aneh2~
nape ak slalu jumpe org plek cmni erk??? jgn la aku kne f****ing lg..fobia2!
smpai la aku ke kaunter nk bayar, die tgk aku dr jauh smbil melemparkan senyumannya yg mengerikan itu..
ya tuhan,lindungilah aku~

"i hate food"

munirah bersama ayam penyet

shimuk+aya=kami pasangan bahagia. haha!

[xlame lg kami akan "breakup" dan meneruskan hidup masing2]hikhik.

stop looking for me..

tiap kali nk dekat musim cuti.. aku slalu akan menerima sms or call dr someone ni..
he's a guy, who i got to know thru on9..[he was my fren's skolmate]
yeah,last tym.. we were close. n we were also ALMOST to go to the another step of relationship.. but, u must remember.. it WAS.
now, im into u at all. so please..stop looking for me!
i hate u damn much!
[hopefully, u will read this post.. yes,i know u will] -also dedicated to other "gatal" blokes.


arini, as almost all of my work done..
aku dh dapat berpikir dgn waras nye.. n start to think of my

since dulu,smpai skang..
i keep thinking, why do some people treat me as if im "cheap".. i hate to say this,but its da fact i recently discovered.
jgn sbb da way i behave,.. da way i dress,.. n da way i bring myself..
people make such a stupid judgement bout me.
im NOT BITCHY, im NOT SLUTTY,im NOT CHEAP..
but,
im an imperfect girl.. who had bad past-life stories; just like other normal human..


all i need is..
someone who can hold my hands to the right path,
showing me the true light,
respect and appreciate me as a good woman.


mood: sad[when the memories came across me mind again]+happy[sbb just went out with aya n moon]

kalo aku kurus...

kalo aku kurus,
aku nk makan sume bende yg ak xpnah rase lg sblom ni, halal la..
24/7 makan je..
wah,nikmatnye idop!
ari2,bleyh makan cheese.. bleyh makan eskrem..
bleyh makan burger..

kalo aku kurus,
byknye fashion baju yg ak bleyh pakai..
pegi mall,ckp je nk style cmne..sume suit!
[kalo pakai baju yg kecik2 sket pon,org xckp ape..]
chOp! aku dh xnak pasang niat pakai mini skirt.. kang jatuh lg.huhu..

kalo aku kurus,
mesti ramai org tepikat kt aku.haha!
yela,cun.. sape xnak??[kalo aku kurus la..]

kalo aku kurus,
mesti aku xdipanggil dgn panggilan "shimuk"..
"asyi"..
"penguin"
"digi"-sempena maskot iklan digi.
dan sebagainye.
[tp,aku xpnah kesah pon org nk panggil cmtu]

kalo aku kurus,
dh byk la aktiviti sukan yg aku join.
kalah la jemma kalo aku masuk sprint.. sume medal aku kebas!

kalo aku kurus,
haih..byknye angan2 aku.
tp sepadan ke usaha dgn angan2 aku tu?
angan2 tinggi,usaha ciput!

haha.. sbb tu la aku xkurus2 kot.
niat salah..[nk goda org, nk pkai yg "plek2", nk itu la.. nk ini la..]

bak kata munirah,
"xde org yg perfect"...
ape yg dijadikan,sumenye dah yg terbaik~

argghhh..
penat sungguh kehidupanku minggu ini.

da whole week, masa diisi dgn translating work.
adoi.. part-time mengalahkan org yg nk menyara anak.haha
thou penat,tp satisfied gak la ngan keje ni..
dpt improve my english + income nye pon best gak.
[income tu yg penting... mau shopping best2!+save some money for a trip diz Oct,insyaAllah..]

minggu ni gak,ade 2 mid-term test.
so far, m happy with both.thou i know, its not gonna be 100%.

esok,friday..
lusa plak,saturday..its holiday!
yeahH!
[yet, i have no plan 4 this hols]

encik munirah,selamat hari jadi!

Allah selamatkan kamu..
Allah selamatkan kamu..
Allah selamatkan encik munirah..
Allah selamatkan kamu.

munirah, kite dh same umo!
happy 22nd bufday.

"susah gak erk,tetibe jd jutawan segera ni.."

kami okb!
awal2 dpt allowance ni,sume org jd rambang mata.
sume org akan jd sgt updated ngn berita pasal sale kt shopping2 mall..
latest gadjets,
latest fashion..
perfume untok valentine.. n blabla.

tu org lain,bkn aku laaa.. [haha]

aku mn pnah berbelanja smpai cmtu.
sentiasa berjimat, dan hidup dlm kesederhanaan.. [isi bakul penuh2, pastu angkat sndiri]

smlm,
aku + moon + jemma..
kami keluar untok "release tension" sekaligus, release duit gak.

aim aku,
just nk beli barang keperluan je..
tp bila dh abes shopping2 tu.. tetiba rs seperti diri ini kembali papa kedana..
my expenditure : smlm + da day before = almost 1k

da day before,
i went out with fatin, n bought a pair of wedge shoes.tu je..
plus makan2
smlm,

i bought some stuffs for me facial treatment..
n makan2.. [makan tu wajib]haha.

namun,aim masih blom tecapai.
ade lg bende yg dh lame di"aim", tp blom dibeli.
tp,duit dh kurang sgt ni.. br 2 hari! adoi...

susah gak erk, kalo dh lame idop papa,
tetiba jd jutawan segera.[padahal 5k je,blom layak jd "jutawan"]

[ hasil photography azzy ]

... where r me old frens?

sometimes,i wonder..
where are all my close frens? yg slalu ke hulu hilir masa aku kt skolah dlu? yg slalu same2 gelak..same2 wat keje bangang.. same2 in every situation...
today, dh 5years ak dh tinggal my schooltym.
n i discovered dat,
xsemestinya org yg aku close masa skolah dlu, yg akan jd forever fren..
so as, we cant predict things in tomorrow~

i have a fren,
yg masa skolah dlu.. xde la rapat gile2. its like, just having frenship because we r classmate, i guess..
but now, today.. she's one of my good old-frens.
thou r not studying in the same place anymore, yet not in the same country as well..
da frenship is always there.. as fresh as always.

dat makes me think again n again..
mn kawan2 aku yg dulu? m i did something wrong? if so,m so so so sorry..
i miss korang, miss da tym together, miss the frenship we had once shared.

dear fatin,
thanx so much!

a yummy bar from nz

luv it!
"good frens are like stars, you dont always see them.. but you know they are always there"

s.a.m.a.n

dikala penghuni bilik B1.8 khusyuk membuat esemen,
tibe2,pintu bilik diketuk.
0h,encik felo rupenye. spotcheck,alamak~

memang tradisi spotcheck dr zaman skolah smpai skang,..mmg xsah kalo aku xkene. haha!
disebabkan heater yg hanya beberapa kali shj digunakan dlm 1 sem, aku di s.a.m.a.n..
kompoun 50hengget!
adoi~

tp,bab tu.. xde la ak kesah sgt.
yg membengangkan lg keadaan adalah wajah si pengikut felo yg sorang nih..
ma'aih, muke bangga gile sbb dpt saman org.
siap bg pandangan sinis lg kt aku.haish!
[kak oi, kalo cantik xpe gak!]
geram2~~

xpasal2, aku berapi di malam hari.
teros ilang idea nk wat translating.huh!

3rd feb!

to u,
hepi birthday!

how can person,
who study in a same place,
used to meet almost everyday..
yet.. never talk to each other.

but,

when we far apart, seperated by thousands miles of ocean..
then, we began to know each other.
started to be frens.. close fren.. n a step further,maybe!
hehe~~

well,
dats what we called a miracle,
a fate.

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."

woke up diz morning, feeling so indifferent.huh~
suddenly remembered things in home,
things happened in skol,last tym..
things dat olwayz bothered..
and,
i did smthg "damn",early in the morning.. while all my rumates were still ZzzZZzzz..
owh~

while listening to "What Ya Want From Me - Adam Lambert", i re-scratch da old stuff in me HD. feel a bit better now. [go away,u sorrow!] looking at those old photos, i re-live the moment..

best fren eva [syera, fit & akram ]

together we are.. 16years frenship!

abah n mily;when she was a few months old

miss my home~sobsob.

di teratak usang inilah aku dibesarkan..

my niece, intan emily

my sister;Mas Eline & the daughter;mily

"English Camp 2008 - wif lin..

dikala aku ditahap bulat maksima"haha

just cant stop laughing looking at this photo! "student exchange prog"
hodoh teramat.

after jog.. singgah KFC jap!

bersama Suraya, end of 2007.

my sister; Mas Ayu, with the daughter and son..

dinner time; celebrating father's day in previous year.

miss all the moments!

miss me frens,

miss me family,

miss all the happy tym.

"an old mother alone"? guess who??

background blakang nmpak cm Blok B mahalah maryam jerk.. hikhik