muhasabah diri.. [ececeyh..]

jam kt laptop ak skang : 1213am.
ak sorang je yg tinggal skang,yg len dlm umah ni sumenye telah selamat dihanyut mimpi..

dikala sunyi2 cm ni,
ak slalu tepk.. "cmne erk aku 10thn nt? or bile dh abes blaja nt? or somewhere in d future?"
kdg2 ak terpk bende +ve.. tp slalunye, -ve..
well,yeah.. im a -ve thinker. i admit it.

sometime,ak rs.. 20 or 30 thn nt tu, adalah masa yg sgt lame utk ak masih wujud kt dunia ni..
ak tau, ajal sume tu... di tangan Tuhan,tp.. memandangkan kesihatan ak yg agak xmenentu skang, ak rs..... [astaghfirullah~........bia la Dia yg tentukan sumenye~] amal blom cukop, dosa mnggunung-ganang.. huuuu.

ble pk pasal plajaran plak,
alhamdulillah,ak hepi la ngan ape yg aku achieve skang, thou blom btol2 satisfied.
walopon pd asalnye ak xske course ni, but i keep thinking dat.. mom has reasons for dat; for forcing[not relli forcing la, tp sgt sgt sgt encourage] me to take the course yg ak blaja skang..

ble pk pasal future, i mean "future" la..
no comment~
since wut i've been thru dlu, ak dh takot to put a final say for dat.
maybe ape yg ak ade skang is the forever 1, or maybe not.. God knows~
thou i seem much better now, but...
yeah,it's like.. an analogy:
u have injured for years ago. the pain is now gone, but the deep scars are stil there. n dat will forever remind u of that injured everytym u see it.. kan? unless u found a magic and super duper powerful remedy to fade the scars la...
hope, i found the remedy..

k, gonna put fullstop ere..
sorry everybody 4 everything,
if 1 day im not ere anymore, just remember dat,.
i've been someone u knew in ur lyf...
as a fren
as a girlfren
as an ex
as a daughter
as a relative
as a human....... dat never be apart with mistakes n flaws

nite, dear people..