dearest, psychotics sekalian...

lay off!
aku mahu idop dgn aman.
cukop2 la tu...
u choose ur own way, and i walk in my own path.

:: i just an ordinary village girl, g la psycho org lain..huhu ::

today is 23rd of february

while 'the other people' graduated today [congratez!],
im here. struggling with my study, trying so hard to settle loads of work.
assignments, proposal paper, interviews, recording, bla2.
yet..
im still doing my fav job,a part-time translator. :)

i barely have time for myself,indeed.
work
work
n work..
s.i.g.h

mode : homesick - poket dah almost kering - byk keje - rasa gemuk tho KG stay je.. - where's my mom? - where's emily? - missing,brrr..

thanx God, im recovered.

its been a few times i have to pray while sitting. indeed, its inconvenient.
but, since its a must. i have to.
this zohor, i was able to be normal. i mean, performed in the way others do.
Alhamdulillah.. You heal my injuries.

there are so many things happened lately. i got sick, accident, 'rob', etc.
yeah, i did blaming other things for it.
now.. i begin to realize the hidden lesson God wanted me to learn.
wut shud i do now?
indeed, i have to change... its not an easy job to do, may time help me to. :)

lagenda : nadiah dan kerbau

kalo dulu feymes ngn citer sang kancil dan buaya.
skang, wujud pula citer nadiah dan kerbau.

sesi soal jawap :

"sape nadiah?"
seperti yg anda sedia maklum dan mengenali beliau.

"tp knape dgn kerbau? xde ke nama haiwan cute yg lain?"
ade je. tp kerbau tu plg sesuai dijadikan gandingan nadiah.

"owh, tp knape?die suke kerbau ke?"
bab tu.. aku xsure. tp yg pasti kalo la tetibe di anjurkan program 'sehari bersama nadiah', korang akan tau ape sbb die.. [burrpp!]

"rasanya.. kitorang dpt agak ko ape sbb die..[smbil tersenyum].
kamu mmg bijak.

"jadi, apekah watak yg dimainkan oleh nadiah dlm cerita tu?"
owh.. erm.. nadiah adalah ketua dlm geng kerbau tersebut. :)

cute,kan? kerbau ni..
sbb tu nadiah rasa berbesar hati sbg ketua mereka.

"i will forgive but i will not forget"

yet, forgive and forget is totally different matters.
those words, of course, begin with F.. but it ends with different letter.
kt situ pon dah bleh nmpak perbezaan die.

attended parenting class this morning,
thats the place where i started to realise and think about the quote.
in depth, i mean.

these are some words from others in the group yg aku ingat:

" if we still remember mistakes done by others, does it mean we already forgive the person?'"
"i dun think so."

"for guys, mmg senang (kot) to forgive and forget, but its not for woman"

"why dun u forget n begin a new start?"

" forget it? its a no-way for me. people had done bad to u, how can we just forget it? but, yess.. i will forgive"

hurm..
a simple quote but with different views.
aku pon xterpk smpai cmtu b4 this. but, for sure...
to forgive and forget is a not an easy one.
in whatever matter.
unless, u r so good and close-to-God.
[owh, i miss that state so much. when will i be one of them??]

knape?

knape ckp,
"eee.. pompuan tu.. suke kawan ngn laki.kejap ngn org tu, kejap ngn org ni"
tp, diri sendiri,
asek ber'sms ngn laki. kalo keluar, siap pgg2 tgn.. main2 kaki. [yek!]

knape ckp,
"aku sgt xsuke org yang buat post emo kt blog.suke ckp xpuas ati ngn org tu la.. ngn org ni la.."
tp diri ko sendiri,
belambak2 post cmtu kt blog. siap ade gamba lg.

knape ckp,
"eeee.. [smbil mencebik] jijiknya pompuan tu.. tgk la bf die cmne. mcm org xde masa depan"
tp diri ko sendiri,
adakah ko dh pilih org yg betul?

knape ckp,
" die tu memang.. nk org ikot ape yang die ckp je"
tp diri ko sendiri,
ko gak yg tnya opinion org tersebut. bile diberi suggestion ko ckp cmtu plak. memang serba serbi xbetul kot ngn ko ni.

knape ckp,
" since ko couple, ko dah xkesah pasal kawan2 ko yg lain. padahal, ko knal kitorng lg lama dr laki tu"
tp diri ko sendiri,
do the same thing.

knape ckp,
'ala.. enjoy la dulu beb. muda sekali je. nt dah tua aku berubah la"
aku nk tnya ko,
"mati 2 kali ke beb?"

knape ckp,
"cecey.. apsal ngn ko skang ni? tudung besar je.. baik gile"
aku nk tnya ko,
"salah ke aku buat cmni?? ko tu,bile nk berubah?"

knape ckp,
"aku selalu xbenasib baik. xmcm korang.. "
aku nk ckp sket,
jgn merungut, sume tu Tuhan dh tetapkan.ade hikmahnya.

knape ckp,
"ish.. aku ni asek xsihat je.xsuke la cmni"
aku nk ckp sket,
"sakit tu penghapus dosa. saba la. mungkin ade petunjuk disebalik tu"

sekian dulu. ♥

"fren indeed is fren in need"

well, ya..
i dun really like the quote.
"fren indeed is fren in need"

can i make a correction? plis..
"fren indeed is fren in every beat of ur heart"
not just... 'in need'.

tq, :)

perjanjian aku bersama nadiah roslan.

4tahun yang lalu,
termeterai satu perjanjian diantara mas sharini dan nadiah.
perjanjian yang sgt serius. boleh juga dipanggil 'perjanjian hidop-mati'.. atau juga perjanjian 'berdarah'.
waahh..

isi kandungan perjanjian:
1. kalo aku xde boifren lg smpai umo 30, aku sanggup single dan mahu menghabiskan masa dgn melancong bersama geng2 single.
2. kalo ibubapaku mencarikan aku calon suami dan memaksa aku untuk menerima jejaka itu, aku tak nak terima dan mahu melarikan diri ke rumah nadiah.
3. nadiah wajib merahsiakan tempat persembunyian itu dari pengetahuan ibubapaku.
4. jika aku sgt keciwa, aku akan membawa diri dan memulakan hidup baru.

tp beberapa bulan lepas tu,
nadiah bgtau aku.. family nya akan berpindah ke kelantan.
aku keciwa dan gundah-gulana.
'nt mana aku nk lari. kalo stakat dlm kelantan, nt sure bapak aku dpt cari'

tp arini, nadiah mengeluarkan 1 statement:
"ayah aku nk start beniaga skang, xtau la jadi ke x kitorang nk pindah klantan"
ini bermakna, nadiah akan tinggal di tganu lame lg..
legaaaa~

haha.
abes serius la perjanjian ni.
[kalo btol2 serius, xde plak aku nk tulih kt sini]

p/s: nadiah, sila amek perhatian dan sentiasa bersedia menerima ketibaan aku kt umah mu.

Dont ask God to make life easier, but ask Him to make ourselves stronger.

life is damn hectic today :(
even a zombie looks more energetic than me.
God,help me to go thru this life..

[xyah bace pon xpe. xde pekdah pon]

"saya tutup pintu hati saya selama 6tahun sbb takut dikecewakan lagi. tp sekarang saya jatuh cinta dgn awak"
dialog dalam citer 'la ikro ha fiddin'

skali dgr mcm sgt jiwang,
but it so meaningful :) hinggakan aku bleh ingat skrip tuh.
tetibe plak aku menghayati dialog citer melayu dgn bersemangat.
[petanda aku dah xde keje lain nk buat]

'have you ever really love a woman' - bryan adams

bile tgk blog hani omma td, aku terus ingat lagu ni.
hihi.
[thanx to dat somebody who gave this to me]

erm, so sweet kan die nyer lyrics.
but this song dah lame sgt.
aku pon mcm dah xingat or maybe xpnah dgr pon lagu ni b4 someone introduced it to me (baru je)
haha. gile classic la.

mula2 dgr: "lagu ni, bleh la buat aku nyer lullaby.. slow gile. ngantok~"
lame lepas tu : "erm.. sweet gak erk.tp ade part xmenahan.. contohnye: see the unborn children in your eyes.. haha"

thumbs up! :D

absence makes the heart grow fonder

i bet, people may think that im going to write about a lover [bf] as they saw the title.
haha.btol x?
ermmm.. no, im not gonna talk about it.

but, what i am thinking r8 now is, the hols is going to an end.
i gonna miss my mOm so much :(
how i wish to be with u everyday
like how you used to be with me when i was a baby.

to accompany you to the place that you always wish to be,
like how u always struggle to fulfill what i want.

to share my laugh,
coz i want to make u happy and forget all the pain you have been through.

to make you keep smiling,
n i will feel so much better when i see u :)

to always be by your side,
even if the best i can be is ... only a good listener.

huuhu.