if..

if i could turn back time..
i wont make u feel regret of having me as ur daughter,mama.
i wont make u sad.
i wont make u cry.
i want to make u happy, despite of all our 'difficulties' and 'the unwanted people' around..

if i could turn back time..
i wanna be me in 6years ago.
i wanna make corrections for all those mistakes.
i wanna study hard for dats the starting point for spm.. thing yg aku regret smpai skang.
so that, i wont be here.. struggling in the field that im not good at.

if i could turn back time..
i would accept the chance to go to the place,
to become as someone i wish to be.. my dream career.

if i could turn back time..
i would try my best to save my relationship.
as hard as i could.
so that i wont be suffering for years..
crying for years..
waiting for years.. for someone who dont like me.. who dont want me anymore..
wasting years of my time hoping and praying for something very impossible.

if i could turn back time..
i wont be eating too much after the break-up thing.
so that i do not need to restrain myself so hard from eating the food that i love.
so that i do not need to fight with the diseases..
so that i can live happily now, without worrying about my jeans :)

if i could turn back time..
i would accept 'ur invitation'..
so that we r not always be in the frenship like we shared today..
so that we r happier than now..
the frenship we shared since childhood wont stay the same until we die..
dats if i say yes to ur 'question' .. 2years ago.
[sorry, i was mentally unstable at dat moment]

if i could turn back time..
i wont do all those 'crazy' stuff.
it MADE me happy and even flying
yet, it MAKES me regret and feel damn guilt,now..
to myself, mama, n dat someone who is very 'clean'.

if i really could turn back time..
........ am i able to change the destiny? dats oredi written to me..
...........am i able to fly to the past and create things the way i want?
.............am i able to make everybody happy? and perfect the way i wish?

if i really really could turn back time..
huh~
i know i cant.

if i really really really could turn back time..
thanx God utk sume ujian tu.
otherwise,
aku xkan realise all the wrongdoings i did,
all the chances yg aku dh buang..
i wont meet someone who can accept n appreciate me
with all the flaws i have
n... there will be no shimuk yg tgh merepek ni.
hehehe.